Anniversaries.

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This current bunch of silence on my part is due to the first anniversary, last Tuesday, of my diagnosis of esophageal cancer, Stage 1. Obviously, it was a big milestone to me, and I spent a small part of that day wondering what, exactly it meant, to me.

What, after all my thoughts these last four days, I have decided that it does mean, is largely a wordless thing. Some things that combine to make this wordless feeling:

  • relief
  • happiness
  • caution
  • distrust of “fate” in general
  • desire for it all just to be a normal day
  • wondering what I’m supposed to feel

There are a few things in there which are largely indescribable to me. At least, not describable within the limits of a usual white pebble blog post. Therefore, I shall not try for this, and sign out for the nonce.

3 thoughts on “Anniversaries.”

  2. A woman who works for a customer of mine had & survived cancer, she’s cancer-free now. Having seen that, and having read about your experience here I can’t even imagine what it’s like. But I do know that I have tons of admiration and respect for people like her, like you, who have gone through it.

    She had a party on the first anniversary of being cancer-free….

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